Am I crazy if I say I fall in love to a person who doesn’t know me, who doesn’t even know my name?
I don’t know why but when I see you it feels like I’m satisfied, when you smile it makes me crazy, I think of you all day long and you’re always in my thoughts. How crazy I am because of you.
But the saddest part is I don’t have any chance to be with you or even just 1 second eye to eye with you. I know that you’re a thousand miles away from me but I don’t know why I keep on believing that there’s a possibility that one day you and I will meet each other. And still, hoping for that one day you will see me and love me for who I am.
How funny I am thinking of those things in my mind, I know that in reality it will never happen because my life is not a fairy tale like Cinderella or snow white that there is a happy ending with their prince charming.
Knowing that you’re with someone else it makes my heart broken into pieces. IT'S LIKE POINTING A GUN INTO MY HEART AND YOU PULL THE TRIGGER but what can I do? I’m just only a fan that supports you whatever happens. I know that it’s my fault bringing this feeling over the limit but is it a sin loving you? If I can only teach my heart to stop beating for you, if I can take you off my mind then I will do that to set you free. I want to hate myself for loving you.
Now I want to change my life, I want to move on and find myself. I hope that it will become easy for me to do this. Before that can you promise me one thing that you will be happy and healthy because seeing you like this I know that I made a right decision and I will not worry anymore.
NOW I’M WAKING UP IN A FANTASY THAT SOMEDAY STAR WILL FALL DOWN.
