“If I were a flower, then now I would be a bud.I shall treasure the beginning of my youth without any regrets.This disease, why did it choose me?Fate. It can’t be put into words.I want to make a time machine and go back in time.If it wasn’t for this disease,not only I could enjoy falling in love but I alsowouldn’t have to rely on anyone and live by myself.I really don’t want to say things such as ‘I want to go back to how things were before.’I recognize how I am right now, and I will continue to live on.Therefore I definitely won’t run away.That’s what I’ll do. Definitely, always.Even if it’s like that, I still want to stay here.because this is the place where I am.If you look up at the sky after falling down the blue sky is also todaystretching limitlessly and smiles at me…I’m alive.People shouldn’t dwell on the past. It’s enoughto try your best in all that you’re doing now.Reality is too cruel, too brutal.I don’t even have the right to dream.As i think about the future, the tears will come out again.”
“Mom, can I get married?” ♥
“Mom, can I get married?” ♥
only human
ikeuchi aya
everyone feels pain. But surely, after suffering satisfaction will arrive.Even with sports,studying or other ordeals with life. It’s like that for everyone. If we can beat the pain, on the other side a rainbow of happiness awaits us! That will definitely become a tresure.Let’s believe in that.
….for me its Live forever!~….
“If you look up at the sky after falling down the blue sky is also stretching limitlessly and smiles at me…I’m alive”
“Just being alive is such a lovely and wonderful feeling “
…“Why this disease choose me?”…
…“Live forever!”…
“what’s wrong with falling down?you can allway stand up again”
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“okasan … will I ever get maried”
“People shouldn’t dwell on the past. It’s enoughto try your best in all that you’re doing now.”
1.”I’m alive”2. “Just being alive is such a lovely and wonderful feeling ” - people in 21. century forget about it and complain about every thing…dont tresure that they are healthy….and alive3. its not really saying but its a good one about love: “when i was feeling down he was always beside me for some reason.its strange but whenever im with him i forget that im ill”4. her father’s : “Don’t you hit on her!”5. “Reality is too cruel and too brutal.it won’t allow me to even have a dream”"6.”i dont want to give up on walking with my own legs yet”7. “humans arent to live in the past, itll be fine if we do what we can now”
“I put my hand to my chestThump, ThumpI feel it beatingMy heart is beatingI’m so glad!I Am Alive“
“….before I was able to say that, I at least cried one liter of tears…”
“live on…”“live on forever…”“arigatou”
“If it weren’t for this disease, I might have been able to fall in love.”
“I want to be hugged tightly by someone.”
“SenSei… WhY DiD ThiS DisEaSe ChOOsE Me?? iM oNly 15.”
” life is hard, but no matter how hard life is life must go on”
..having the disease is not unlucky, it’s just inconvenient….
“everyday, im fighting against this disease”“it’s painful to be with asou-kun, thinking that if i didn’t get this disease, then i would be able to do them all”“when im with asou-kun, i’ll keep on wanting a dream that can never come true”
“when i was feeling down he was always by my side. it’s strange but everytime im with him, i forget that i am ill”
“Reality is too cruel and too brutal.it won’t allow me to even have a dream”
as long as it’s you saying it…it doesn’t matter how slow you say it…i’ll still listen
if you can’t talk on the phone then i’ll come to see you
if you wanna walk…no matter how slow it will be…i’ll walk with you
“when the time comes, I want to be surrounded by flowers and sleep forever,…”
” I’m so glad” It’s alright for me to think that I wasn’t always a bother to them, isn’t it?
4 more days until the last day of school. It seems everybody is folding a thousand origami cranes for me. The sight of them folding so wholeheartedly, I want to burn them into my memory so that I will never forget even if we must part. But… “AYA-CHAN DON’T GO” is what I wish they’d said.
if it weren’t for this disease i might even be in love! i want to cling into somebody’s arm so badly…
even so, i wanted to be here because this is where i belong!
You’re not the only one hurting in this world. The one that cannot understand and the one who cannot understand ~ they are both to be pitied.
so what if i fall? all i have to do is get back up again!
if i look up at the sky when i fall, the blue sky is still vast and smiling at me.
People shouldn’t live in the past!
.when I imagine about the future, tears start to drop.
.People shouldn’t dwell on the past.It’s enough to try your best in all that you’re doing now.
.I really don’t want to say things such as“I want to go back to how things were before.”I recognize how I am right now, and I will continue to live on.
.It’s fine if i’m in pain by myself.But I’m also bringing trouble to the people around me.
.To be able to smile and tell everyone this,I have,at least,cried one litre of tears.
.No matter how little the matter is,I want to become a useful person to others.
.As I think about the past, tears will come out.Reality is too cruel, too brutal.I don’t even have the right to dream.As I think about the future, the tears will come out again.
.Where should I head towards?Even there isn’t an answer, I’ll feel better by writing it down.I’ve looked for a pair of helping hands.But I couldn’t feel them, couldn’t see them.I only face towards the darkness.and hear the sounds of my hopeless screams.
i idolize this girl
BEAUTIFUL LINES AND POEMS OF
“IKEUCHI AYA”
FROM HER DIARY
I REALLY LOVE the life story of AYA….binago nya ang pananaw ko sa buhay….
grabe it makes me cry more than 1 liter of tears…..
siguro kung ako ang nasa kalagayan nya matagal na akong bumigay…..
labis ang paghanga ko sa kanya…..
AYA
thanks for inspiring me….kahit wala ka na marami ka paring natutulungang tao…..your a brave girl…..hope that your happy where ever you are…..
thank you so much
the world’s destiny could not easily be accepted
